Men have a lot of hang ups. Especially gay men; especially black gay men. We put a lot of requirements on the type of men we'll date and most often we'll settle for whats cute in the face, hard in the body, long in the dick, wet in the ass, and a commodity among the community, rather than going with substance.
Now don't get me wrong I am superficial about certain things myself. I just hate to date a man less feminine than myself; it bothers me. Not to mention that Drag Queens and Bottoms are a major turn off for me. First of all I can't see a guy in heals and a dress climbing my back: and well as far as bottom brother goes, we can't really do anything but swap stories. And I think i may have told more than I wanted to tell in this particular blog post.
Anyway, I bring this point up; about black gay men being so picky to point out something I myself am beginning to experience. Something I have never actually experience ever before in my life, and its sort of grappling with my nerves. You all know I am sort of kind of dating a guy. (I think, to be honest with you I am not really sure what we're doing, but we're doing something!) Anyway this guy, Mr Robinson is older than myself. Which doesn't bother me at all. I have dated older men before, in fact my first experience with a guy in a serious relationship was with an older guy. He was practically, if not my mothers age. We were together for quite sometime, and at the time I was in my early twenties.
However this fact has come up twice in conversations that I have had with Mr. Robinson, and I am beginning to more than think that our age difference bothers him. I am not sure if he thinks that I am too young and unable to really commit to the type of relationship that could possibly grow between us. Or weather it is that fact that he just sees himself as too old. What ever the reason there is definitely a sort of hesitation on his part, and I think that a little part of his hesitation has to do with the nature of the gap in age difference between us.
That sort of bothers me. I think it bothers me more than anything because I am a mature individual , and I have always been a mature individual, even in my early teens I related very well with adults and men of a certain age, and quite frankly I feel offended that he is allowing my age to quite possibly detour him from pursuing what would be quite an amazing experience. This bothers me a whole hell of a lot.
Is age really that big of a deal when deciding to enter into a romantic situation with someone that your attracted to. I mean i see older men flirt with younger men in the club all the time, and they don't seemed to be bothered. After all I did look young when you first started flirting with me, and I was younger than you when you slept with me, so why is it such an issue to pursue something more permanent with me like a emotional, and mentally stimulating relationship.
Is age really an issue?
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